The little One


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I usually come late at night from work.

My job is such that it requires me to stay late at night . and I often reach home by 1 am or 2 am at night . when everybody sleeps I work and when I reach home , it becomes so quiet that you hear the sound of insects from the nearby ground. well , its not only me who works night shifts , there are so many different professions that do night shifts , but I am one of them .

When I started doing night shifts it was difficult for me to cope with it only coz it was night shift. at first it becomes very difficult for ones body to adjust , to stay awake and to keep its eyes open all night , its against the natural body schedule. but work is work and duty calls. so job needs to be done.

Anyway , I am not here to tell you about night shifts , I am here to tell you what happens at night when I reach home and it happens frequently.

I took this picture recently , which you see above. I took this coz its home to little one. I call it little one coz it is little and its my secret friend.

One morning I was doing jogging in this ground which is in my apartment next to my flat. in the morning at 4 when its still dark and quiet , one can come across number of dark creatures , some known and some unknown.

Animals like cats and dogs are regular visitors to my apartment and they do no harm to anyone. so its fine with us. on this fateful day when I was jogging I heard a noise , like a scream , it was like a modified cat sound. like cats do me ew . it was anywhere in between me aa uuu eww. I knew it was not a cat but it did sound like a cat. I stopped and kept on hearing this sound from the corner where we see lights , right underneath this light she lives. behind the pole.

I stopped and tried to reach closer to the light , I saw wo eyes, glowing eyes, and then I noticed it had no four legs like cats. it had two legs and it was standing in upright position.

I was perplexed . I had courage to reach closer but as I stepped closer its roar increased it became more challenging . it was like its warning me to stay away and not to come any closer .

Luckily I had my smart phone with me and I took no time in clicking this pic.

Its there , I know you cant see but its right there , behind the pole , when I took this picture I knew this thing was watching me , was watching my every move and it was there.

I decided to stay away from it and respect its presence.

Now every time I reach home at night , little ones know my presence and tries to call me down from distance and sometime I do visit little one.

But from safe distance.

 

The night it Happened


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Few days ago me and my friend were coming to home after work .  we left office at 1 am and that day I had driven to work in my own car instead of boarding office cab , coz it was weekend so I decided to bring my own car and my friend who happens to be a female and my co worker left work late at night. on the way we bought snacks and beer . late at night we were hoping that we will not cross the line with law and will drive home safely and slowly. as it was a long route and on usual days it would take an hour to reach home . but that day we had different plan . we decided to drive slowly and to make a stop at one place where we can talk and gossip for long hours and then drive home.

As planned we drove slowly and stopped at one place , we had our snacks and we chit chatted . during this time ‘mags’ my friend’s name , saw a car parked right next to us .

She said she has seen this car before , I asked her where , she replied that this car is been following us ever since they left office. I said no , but she suggested me to go and check this car , lets go and have a word with the owner. I said alright. I was curious to know what was going on in here.

I walked up to the car leaving mags behind . as I approached the car I noticed its window were down and there was no driver. and when I looked inside I saw an ignition key , It appeared driver had left in a hurry, I decided to return and spoke to mags about this . she said its fine and then we decided to leave . as prepared to leave we noticed that our car was not in sight. I was puzzled to not to see my car. we looked around but we found it no where .

This is when mags told me to go and check the car we just noticed which belonged to someone but not us. for some stupid reason out of no where we decided to drive in abandoned car. we drove all the way and it looked very familiar , the car which we drove looked like we have been in it before.

I left mags at her home and drove to my home. we slept half of the day and woke up next afternoon like nothing happened.

I decided to went down to take a look at the car we drove last night.

It was my car.

The Deal


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The Deal

Its a small but very strong word. just like FUCK. now FUCK is the most popular word in the world and is the most used word in the world. we all know what it means but we use it for everything. even when we should not be using it but we use it.

Deal is somewhat less famous and less known word but still good enough to raise eyebrows. we know what it means . The Deal.

I am not afraid of the dark but I am afraid to go in dark places

Dark matter is black all black when you can not see anything not even your hands, all you hear is your deep breath , and you know you are alive or still alive . you walk across the cave full of darkness ,can’t see anything but you do know that there is a way ,way somewhere which leads to someplace or to something. but we do not know , what it is .

Its an unknown , we do not know what’s going to happen next , so we are scared of it. we do not know how to fight and how to tackle with it.

Fear of Unknown.

I decided and made a deal to myself that I will be scared of the dark and scared of the shadows. I made a deal to myself that I will have a fear of unknown coz this way I will be alert. and will take calculative steps . I am willing to take risks and I am willing to go all the way but I am not ready to risk my loved ones lives. I love them and I cant have them pay for the risks I take.

The deal to the shadows which are always with me . its the light which guides my shadows , I made a deal to it that I will not be afraid of you , if you are with me , either you are my enemy or my friend.

Few days ago I came from work in the morning at wee hours around 3 am . after all night work from the other day I was all tired and was ready to sleep. I had a glass of water and went to bed and closed my eyes. I was ready for sound sleep and was ready to go deep in my dreams. I sleep alone in my bed with no one around , in my room there is no space for anyone , its been like this for years now and I think I am not ready for another person in my room or may be I am , or may be I am bit confused.

So here I am in my bed ready to sleep tight . going through the thoughts of the day and suddenly I looked at the wall

I thought I was all alone , but I wasn’t I felt I see someone right next to me on the left hand side of my bed. I felt someone was there or is there . I tried to calculate in my mind how far this entity is. it appeared very close to me , very close , very close, right next to my shoulder. I got up and it also got up with me and then I stood

I was scared but I had the courage to stand , I wanted to counter my fear , I wanted to fight , I knew if I will not fight , I will never come to know if I will win or loose , should I loose but I am not ready to loose without fighting , I was ready .

I was ready to fight. .

I stood straight and looked at it , on the wall instead, I realized it was my shadow. my shadow a friend or foe I do not know but it was something. it was time for me to find out.

why there is no response from my shadow ? when I move it moves , if I am still it also still. it was strange , can I kill it ? I thought but may be I should not. you are my friend or foe or neither of those. but you are with me

I make a deal with you that I will not be afraid of you .

I made a deal .

-Dolce

 

 

Tail in The Sky


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Few days ago , I captured this image from my roof top . I am an avid photographer and I often use my smart phone to capture whatever I like and worth capturing. I have got lot of images in my collection which I clicked and I appreciate what I have , I often put my skills and imagination to test.

This particular image was during the ongoing monsoon season where in I saw this cloud trail passing over. I knew I liked it and I had to capture it . so ran to my room and got my smart phone to click this one .

For others it just might be a portion of cloud but for me it was something else.

For me it was a “Tail of Godzilla”. I imagined it as a tail of a giant lizard which just passed by and I am looking at it giant tail hovering over in the sky over the buildings. \

It gave me goosebumps .

Think I am crazy ?

I am

:-)

Baby have you forgotten your password


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Oh my baby , I seems to love you so much . you are so adorable , so lovely , so charming , so beautiful but I never loved you for your body , I loved you for your soul which houses inside that skin.

OH! wait honey !

Have you forgotten your password ?

I know you are better , you know you are good , you know you are far better than me . I am me but you are not . I wait for you to write something , to pen down something , I wait for your words. I wait for your thoughts , I wait for your views. I want to know what’s going on in your mind. I want to know what have you thought about .

I want to know what your eyes see, I want to know how you take actions , I want to know how your body behaves. I want to know that do you feel lovely in your skin, you have a beautiful body baby , a lovely body, I still remember the smell of your skin, the touch of your body, my lips on to yours , my hands on you and yours on me , I cant seem to feel the same way again , Its magical. I loved a woman , and I still love one . and I will always love one .

But I don’t know who I love baby , I don’t who I live with ,

Not enough  love seems to be here in this world anymore , this world has gone crazy and its driving me crazy . I see people cursing each other , I see people killing each other , we cry all the time , we ignore those who need help , we ignore their tears , we hurt lovely adorable animals , we hurt those who are already been hurt enough .

I don’t want to live here anymore honey , I am tired of this world . I am hoping against hope .

But I do believe that there is a better world waiting for me . but I do hope in my world I will have you , I will be waiting for you baby .

But you seems to have forgotten your password honey .

Its alright , I hope you will unlock the door.

Unlock the door baby.

When wait seems to get over


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I have been waiting all this while to see you . to see you for once. to see you for one time , at least after all these  years , I will see you . a hope , a dream which I had during my child hood but seems not to get over , my wait , I wait , waiting and I hope I will wait any longer because I know you will show , some day , you will come , you will show me the way , you will show me the light , you will show me the way to live , you will show me how to be happy , how to dream , how to live , how to appreciate things I have .

I had heard a lot about you , a lot, I got interested in you when I was as little as 15 years old , now I am 35. I still remember the day when I first saw “The x Files” . it soon became my fav television series , never a day I missed a single episode. I got excited , I wanted  answers , I wanted to know the truth , I wanted to know was it for real , I wanted to see the truth behind all this happenings around the world.

I always knew there is something , I always knew about you , I had always believed in you , I just had to see you for once.

OH! do you really exist for real . all these pictures on the internet are for real . are you here on this planet earth I live , are you there in outer space ?

NASA is no stupid , astronauts are not stupid who got your sightings hiding for long in their hearts only to give away everything right before their last breath . because they knew this world had to know the truth , they could not live with this lie and could not more participated in this lie which has sealed your identity .

Its funny and strange that we know you are there , there are number of evidence that you are here and there but for some reason there is not enough to say that you are here .

I don’t know what to say , but should I say that I have seen you for once, or should I say that you came to me for once to show your identity .

I don’t know , I am confused.

help me !

when time stops


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There is a window right next to my room . I remember the first time I saw you walking by right next to my home , I was drinking morning coffee and was enjoying morning sun shine .

my daily routine ? yes it was.

I was ignorant not to have seen you all this while , I  was amazing and happy and when I saw you for the first time it was like a breath of fresh air in my life and was something new because I knew I will be awesome after this. I saw you everyday but I never spoke to you . you saw me I saw you and every single day . me at the window and you down on the streets , at the same time. no communication but we both knew there is some contact between you and me. the way we both looked at each other it was like two strangers but yet together .

you knew that I wanted to talk and you wanted the same but for some reason we let it go. may be we thought some day we will. some day , the day will come when we both will sit together and will have tea and biscuits and we chit chat for hours and will know each other better .

I bought a new wall clock for you , not to gift you but to put it on my wall , my time for you was different , different from this world , I wanted it to be my own . I started maintaining my schedule

I got it only to show that yes my time and your was important. I respected your time and you respected mine. I started setting up time on the wall clock by your schedule it was certainly different from rest of this world . it was silly of me doing so but in  a world where every one busy trying to make themselves smart , I think it was not a bad idea to be silly for a while . I outsmart in this department. I was happy and I was awesome.

And one day , you did not show up . one day everything changed.

I don’t know why

I don’t know why I felt like this. every thing was ok , this world was moving but it seemed like my world had stopped , I had seen you for so long , I guess I had become addicted to you and got habit of seeing you . now everything seemed different , everything looked abnormal , everything looked out of my reach , it was so for being away from you . yet I felt your presence on the street , that you are there.

I looked at the wall clock , it had stopped too . I realized time had not stopped for me but it had stopped for you . time had taught me never stop for anyone , keep on moving . one will come and will go but you should not wait for someone and keep on moving . don’t wait . its unhealthy.

your time to pass by my window was over. may be you had gone somewhere else . and it was someone else time to look at you . may be your and my time was gone . I don’t know but our time had stopped and so as the wall clock which I bought for you had also stopped.

I was fine with you and without you and I am fine without you.

–Dolce