” Do one thing everyday that contributes to your life ”.
”I am already in pain , i am already hurt , so why quit.
Its not an option for me.
”I don’t want to get to the end of my life and find that i lived just the length of it , I love challenges and this is what makes my life worth living , there is no easy way for me , but i know that after pain there is always a joy of success , that’s why i love it.
I was alone and single and I was happy. I had no one in life whom I had called special. I was young and free like a bird. I was independent and I was a rebellious. I had no time for anyone but I had time for myself. going to the gym , watching movies , listening to music , painting, making movies with my camcorder , photography all I had to live my life with. my life was such. ever seen a fish in the ocean don’t know where to go ,it just makes its own way to somewhere , create its own path, ends up where no one does, finds something new.
Have ever found something new ? something you had always dreamt about ? something which is the most precious to you ? something you can’t live without ?
Do these questions come across your mind often ?
”You don’t need someone to complete you , you only need someone to accept you completely”.
You have a good job , good money , you are successful , you have everything in the world you can aspire for . you have a great fan following, you have blogs and websites which reflects you. you have people who admire you and respect you and want to be like you , you have people who jealous you and want to pull you down and want to demotivate you all the time.
You have flashy and swanky cars in the parking lot and you have digital gadgets to play with . you have everything you can think of .you don’t have to be a millionaire to enjoy life, you can still enjoy life in little.
But why you still want someone special in your life ,someone who is only for you , a person who should only be yours, whom you can call your own ?
Why it is so difficult to live without you ? why it is so tough breathe without you ? why I think of you all the time ? I should not may be . but I can’t help it , I love you , am I right or wrong ? I don’t know , all I know that I love you .
I want you to complete me or may be more than that I want you to accept me completely .
You love me , but why do you love me ? is there anything in me you can’t live without ? why do you find me the best in the world ? why you can’t stop thinking about me ? why I am in your dreams all the time ? why you can’t eat , breathe and sleep without me ? why you can resist my touch and want to celebrate your life with me ? why you want to live and die with me ?
Tell me why ?
Seriously I didn’t mean to fall in love with you , but I did . I did , I did because ,that’s how I wanted it to be.
”When someone truly cares about you they make effort not an excuse”
Tell me if I had ever made an excuse ? the excuses which you thought were an excuse , were not an excuse. it was my effort to bear pain today to make my and your life a better tomorrow. it was my effort to put smile on your face and me take all the pain and sweat hard to make you feel special and comfortable, it was my effort to make you understand that yes I love you , I really do. tell me when was the last time you found me fake ? do you have an answer to it ? no you don’t.
”Real love doesn’t care about body type, model looks or wallet size, its more concerned about what’s inside.”
Have I not accepted you as what you are ? have I ever cared about how you look , how short or tall your are ? how charming and ordinary you look ? how you dress or the way you walk ? have I ever cared about it ? or should I care ? should I judge you the way you look or the way you really are from inside ? have not I accepted your body as it appears ? it’s so beautiful. have i failed to make you feel sexy , beautiful and wanted ? have i failed to make love you ?
I know i have given everything into it , you don’t see yourself in the mirror as beautiful as much as i see you through my eyes.
”You are really charming and beautiful woman , you are indeed special , you are sexy and wanted , you are valued and important.”
I want you to understand your importance and want you to understand a person who loves you .
Love is a beautiful feeling. nothing beats the feeling of love . its just so lovely.
Present Day , Chicago , USA
I am is __________ . its not important ! , age ____ . its not important either . me , standing right here in the middle of the boxing ring. till yesterday I had madding crowd cheering over me , till yesterday I had my entire crew motivating me, till yesterday I had lot of money in my bank account, I had fame, luxury , everything in the world a man can asked for, till yesterday I had one lovely wife with one beautiful daughter, till yesterday I was everything I can be.
Things have changed now.
Yesterday I won my first Boxing championship. I am a champion , you pick up today’s news paper you will see my name with my belt and my picture on the front page. you will see the list of contracts and the endorsement companies which are ready to sign me and want to use me to make millions. my tough face and tough body is strong enough to take any pain as it took enough during my boxing career. my image as a family man has inspired others to become tough to face the rough circumstances with confidence. I am a simple man down to earth and I have great fan following.
But why this has become important for me that you know this ? only because my life has become a paper without a word ,since someone who has used me to write its world on it , is not here anymore. so what’s the point of having all this when there is no one close to you to share. this world has become a business for me , people are around me not because they love me but because they love themselves and its their selfishness which allow them to use me for their benefit and so far they have been successful.
My story ,oh yes my story may be I should not tell you. or may be I should tell you since I am celebrity and may come good to some gossip magazine to publish and make another millions from it. may be I should publish my story on my website. may be I should not do anything. I don’t know. I don’t know how I think and what should I do , I am clueless and i am on the edge, yes on the edge ,no where to go , can’t go back in time and can’t go forward , it seems as if everything has stopped.
How does it matter to you ?
Yes i am a boxer and its my passion. this should matter to you.
I was happily married to one lovely wife who used to take care of me. it was a love marriage and i was happy with her and she was happy with me. we were together for the past 4 years and we had so much love between each other. after 4 years of love we decided to marry and decided to stay together forever. it was mutual decision since we both trusted each other and had faith that we will never leave each other. we had so strong bonding. we married and decided to make our new world from the beginning , the kind of world we wanted for ourselves and for our children. she was educated and mature in thoughts which had always impressed me. me being a brat in attitude she was always there to make things right and to make them favorable. she was always there for me. i had a regular job from 9 am – 5pm which i was doing with decent pay scale, nothing flashy. it was good to have good lifestyle, if not luxurious. i only wanted a happy home . to me a happy family is of husband wife , one daughter and son and a dog and one small beautiful home. this is something which has been a definition for me for a happy family.
After a year my wife gave birth to a beautiful daughter , i was a father for the first time in my life and it was an amazing experience , now i had responsibilities more than before , i had a wife and daughter to take care of, my daughter was lovely. she was so charming and so vibrant. at birth for the first time when i holded her my arms. she grabbed my finger with her so tiny arms. it was so lovely , my eyes were wet and my wife was smiling as she felt emotions between me and my daughter. i decided not to leave my daughter ever , me her father has to be always there for her , she needs me , i need to make sure that her father makes his presence till his last breadth.
We came home like one happy family. we cooked food and slept. me being a passionate lover , I have always given pure love to my lovely wife. she had always endured the fact that me being so masculine has always empowered her with inner strength and passion. i have always loved her every day and every night and leaving her asking for more, she has given me pleasure. it was no better life i had asked for , passionate wife with one passionate husband and one lovely daughter. life was happy.
Gradually as i started taking responsibilities things started feeling like every thing is less around me, i wanted more , i wanted more than what i have right. to give better life to my wife and to my daughter it was important for me to strive for best as i was able to do so. i had to use my every drop of blood to make sure that my wife daughter breathe easily. though they were not asking for anything but me being a man had to go and get more. it was my love for my family which motivated to go for more than what we have now. so i decided to take a step and not to stop.
I had one passion , painful passion of boxing. boxing , being my favorite sport had always invited me to boxing ring. but i was a strong man and regular to gym so it was easy for me to become a boxer . all i wanted , a training to enhance my skills in boxing. to become a better boxer. i had to bring that tough ness in me which boxers have. may be my wife will not like my idea of being a boxer, but the idea was to make them happy and to bring more money to home to bring more happiness and to bring more more and more. i had made up my mind and there was no looking back for me.
I joined boxing coaching classes and used to take it in the evening after work. i had sacrificed my time with my family to make sure that i get what i wanted . after all, i had to take pain to make my and my loved ones life better tomorrow. i took tough training in boxing and i remember i was changing. there was a change in my attitude. now there was less smile on my face and my body language had become tough. less laugh , no fun and less love to my wife. all the time i was thinking about my passion and to get more. i think i did little too much and failed to keep balance between passion and family life. i guess i was making a mistake and i did not realize it that time. i hope if i had but it wasn’t so.
One day one of my friend at work asked me about my boxing classes. I told him its going fine , he said do you know how to make money from boxing ? I said yes , I will join some club and will participate in boxing matches and will make money like that. he said No ! you will have to prove yourself that you are good enough to take pain more than you give, if you can take the beating and still stand tall ,you will win. I said alright , what I have to do to prove myself ? he gave me an address of an underground boxing club which used to take place at downtown Chicago. I decided to submit my application to take part in the boxing matches. after few weeks , day of my first boxing match came. my opponent was very strong . in the first look he looked like a winner. but I was too iron steel will man. no one betted over me but I knew if I will give everything into it I can win. this is the moment I was waiting for and its my night. I gave my all into the match and it was a close fight. I won the bout and it was happened to be my first bout. after the first win it was straight 6 losses to me. but I never gave up and kept on loosing. but I some how managed to catch people’s attention and I was the talk of the town. not because I had lost 6 straight matches but because of the ability to take pain. I had made my way to the right people but this came with the sacrifice in family life.
I had to participate in the first ever underground boxing championship and it was a knockout tournament with no prelims ,only one to one bouts and the one who wins the fight go one step further and the one who looses go home. interesting format and I was ready for it. fortunately I won my all the bouts and made it to the top. a night before my final match , I could not sleep at home , I went to my daughter’s room while she was sleeping. I sat right next to her looked at her lovely face and small body which I wanted to take care of, I thought this the person I am fighting for and I love her . she was my daughter. I went to my room , my lovely wife on bed sleeping. I saw her sleeping and may be dreaming about something , I don’t know what it was. but she was at peace. I was happy. I kissed her , touched my lips to hers. gave her a butterfly kiss. thought this is someone I can die for. I love her so much and I can’t live without her and what ever pain I am taking for her , Is the pain I don’t regret for. after pain there is always a happiness as life do become nice and easy. I was ready for this , I had to give this life to my family .
My wife knew that I am going for a fight the day when I had a fight. I ate my breakfast kissed my wife and daughter and left for the finals. I did not call my wife that day and I knew that she was anxious and uneasy as what will going to happen. so I decided not to contact her and waited till evening for the fight. In the dressing room I slept peacefully till evening after the training session. at 5 pm I woke up ,took shower and got ready to fight. it was 5 minutes to fight when I had to leave my dressing room. I was ready ,this is the moment I was waiting for , this was the time I had been dreaming about. I had to give it all , not only for myself but for the people I loved , my family , my wife and my daughter. I had always thought about giving them good life and this was the time when I had to give my shot to make it all happen, this was the moment which had to decide a break up or make up. it had to happen tonight. I left the dressing room to be in the boxing arena.my opponent was strong, but I knew that I am better than him , I was faster than him , I was more advanced than him in fighting techniques, I was able to take more pain than him. five round fight was about to happen in 10 seconds. I looked deeply into my opponents eyes. I said to him in mind ” that I respect him for what he is , I respect him for his power and strength, I respect him for all he has given up to become a world champion, I respect him for his love to his family but tonight is not the night where he will emerge as winner, it has to be my night and I am more stronger than him tonight, I am more deadly than ever I have been”.
After 5 rounds of deadly fight we both were in the pool of blood. it was a fight to remember for both of us. it was a night to remember. crowd had witnessed an amazing war between two strongholds. it was a live broadcast on local television and had media all around. I knew it was my night , my moment , I was on the top of the world. why ? yes I was a winner. I emerged as a winner in an underground boxing championship. I was the strongest on this planet , I felt like a king. I won a prize money $ 5 million. I knew this is what I wanted to give my family a better life. I wanted to give them everything in the world they had ever wished for. I had it now and it was time for me to share it with my family.
I was in pain as my ribs were broken and my jaw was dislocated. my head was aching but all this pain was small when I knew that the pleasure of seeing my daughter and wife at home is unmatched. so after the treatment from the doctors at the location , I went straight to my home to see my wife and daughter. I was impatient to see my family as soon as possible and to share this news with them that I had won. I reached my door. I was about to ring the bell but I stopped , because I saw a rose at the door , a red rose, I remember this one .this was the rose I gave it to my wife when I proposed her. why it was here now ? I had no clue. the door was unlocked and open , I went inside, I called my wife and daughter but there was no one to answer. I looked all around but the home was empty . it looked like that my wife had left home with my daughter. she was gone. I had family no more. she was not there, she someone I loved , had left me with no reason. or may be there was a reason which I failed to understand but she was not there , it was a reality.
My wife had taken all her clothes along with my daughters. she had taken all her things as if she will never return. but why did she do that ? where I went wrong ? was I wrong in my approach ? was my attitude wrong ? was I too selfish ? was I too greedy ? did I neglect my family ? I had no answers. I guess I was left alone to do some analysis of the situation . I guess I was left alone to realize that what I have lost to gain another. to realize value of what I don’t have now may be was an idea. but I was alone . I had no one to share it with anyone , the joy , the pleasure, all this pain I took and the torture I had gone through for being away from my family . I had no one to understand that, I had to deal with it alone now. I have everything in the world today , at this moment, but I don’t have , what happens to be most precious to me. my people , my wife and my daughter. they were gone. where ? she never left me a note. does she expect me to find her ? my be not. I will not go searching for her. if I am important to her , she will come to me again. I want her to know that I loved her the most and I still and always love her the way I loved her for so many years. she is mine and will always be mine. she will come to me I know , when ? I don’t have a clue. I am hopeful that she will return to me. she will. I love you baby . I will always love you.
In the fight of Passion and Love I don’t what won , I guess whoever won but I had lost, I lost !
I am young,good looking,strong physically and even more mentally.i don’t give up easily under any given circumstances.i fight till my last breath.when all the chips are down and everything looks out of reach ,when you feel like you are all alone ,when it seems the world will come to an end and only you will survive,when you find no one around you to talk to and when every single day seems like a last day of your life,its the time when you stand up for yourself.not to show it to anyone else but to show it yourself that what you are.you are your own biggest competitor and nobody is.
Should you be super human or you are from distant planet or from hollow earth to exibit all these qualities ? no you don’t have to be superhuman to show what you are,you only become human with little extra effort which makes a difference from loosing to winning.
I am human too just like any other here on this planet earth,i am like you too.i breathe,walk,eat,laugh,cry,smile and show all kinds of emotions which a human should.i feel pain when i get hurt,i feel happy when something goes fine,i feel upset when something hurts me and heart gets broken when i feel pain in love.
SOMETIMES LOVE IS PAIN its very true that love has never been easy.whoever so thought that its easy to do love ,is day dreaming.ask someone who does love only for the sake of doing love and someone who do love because he/she is in love.you will see the difference.love is the biggest strength in this world and it has no match ,if you have love in your life nothing else would matter and if you have no love in your life it don’t matter whatelse you have.
I am very fortunate to be in love with someone who is indeed very special to me and someone indeed, the only woman i love the most so far.love never comes easy ,it has more pain than gain and you sacrifise more in love than you ever get and love is the only thing where you feel happy and satisfied when you give it more more and more and it never ends ,you never run out of love,never.
Those who say they can buy love ,i say they are ignorant.you can never ever buy love with money ,you can buy this rest of the world but love,never.
How does it feel when you love someone so much ,you give your everything and you give your life to it.you are in love right? ,so now its your responsibility to save your love.you do anything possible for the person you love the most ,no matter what happen to you ,you being honest ,being loyal,being caring for your partner,there is no power in this world that can even stop you from making your love go new heights.
I come from the land where love is life.
I still remember when i fought with this world for my baby ,who i love so much.i kept on fighting fighting and fighting,i only saw her not this world.i never cared about what’s this world doing around me i only cared about my baby that this world should not cause any harm to her while i am still alive.
Yes alive – there came a time when i fought with death also to be alive because i still wanted to be with my baby.i would rather die in my baby arms than elsewhere.my baby arms give me peace like no other.it gives me pleasure like no other.where there is love there is pain and i would rather takes this pain then not being in love.
I remember the day when my friend got admitted in the hospital.i also got the news and rushed to the hospital.there he was on the hospital bed ,lying in peace in silence ,he said nothing ,his eyes were closed,had oxygen mask on and was under ventilators.i had no idea what really happened to him.for the next three days he did not open his eyes and we all got worried ,his heart was still beating and he was breathing through his oxygen mask.he looked alright to me.i was informed that he had an heart attack and is lucky to be alive,doctor said he may not able to cope with another heart attack.
On the fourth day he opened his eyes,finally.in the afternoon when he was ready to talk i asked him what’s wrong with you mate ? you have been never like this ,what happened to you ?
He closed his eyes again and opened in the evening ,he saw me the place where i was when i asked him a question in the afternoon.he knew that i am not going to leave without my answer.he looked into my eyes and said i had a choice to choose between pain and love ,i choose pain and gave my love to my baby.
Later i thought he is nothing but a victim of cupid and so as the person he love the most.but he did nothing wrong.this is something very few people do today in this world where it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone ,an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
I love her so much but i have been very selfish.i love her from the bottom of my heart but i have been very irresponsible,i love her so much that i keep on thinking about her but even then i don’t take actions.
She know that how much i love her. she know i don’t even think of any other woman but her. she know that i am going to be with her only,i am one woman man, which makes her happy but even then why she is unhappy ?
The problem is with me or with all those men who are like this.any woman is man’s biggest strength then why do man fail to realize its importance.
Universe decided our fate already that we are destined to be together.but are we really ? if things go like this probably we will never be together.i am in love with her but she is so far ,even then our love is still alive.still has a spark which can ignite it to the new high.so happy to have you with me baby.so happy to be a part of my life.but why i make u upset all the time ? may be i am not worthy for you ,may be i am not good enough for your love,may be i am not strong enough to fight against all odds to get you.but this is not true.a true lover is the one who fights for his love.who kicks this world to be with his only love ,a woman he loves all this time to be with her to enjoy this moment.
I am your true lover honey. i just wana be with you, i can’t even think of any other woman but you.ever since i met you its only you in my mind and in my heart.i have always said that you brought love in my life again.there was a time when i was alone and lonely after my break up with my then girl friend who i thought will marry.but i guess universe had something else to offer.its no coincidence or luck that we got each other.it was here since the beginning.every step i took in my life was slowly and slowly taking me to you.every thing i did ,every step i took was it to lead towards you.its still ongoing and it will never end.its a journey which not only me and but you too will have to complete.we will go together on this journey.
Men does take actions which makes their women unhappy.men can’t live with women can’t live without them either.i can’t do without you either honey.i just can’t.i know what’s killing you from the inside and i also know its the same which is also killing me from within.i wish if i could tell you what i wanted to tell you but this is not the time , this is the time to let you know,when the time is right you will know.
Every men when takes some action ,he takes it for a reason.he takes with a purpose.some of the actions he takes may get failed some he wins.some of his actions makes his woman happy some unhappy.it depends what”s the ratio of his actions which makes her happy or unhappy.if the actions he takes which makes his woman happy is more than those which makes her unhappy ,its still alright ,a woman can live with it.what about when a man takes actions which makes his woman mostly unhappy.there is a problem.there is a problem indeed.either with a man or with his actions.
I don’t want to tell my woman that what i am or what i can do since at the end of the day it all comes down the actions you take.have i took any actions which had made my lady happy. i guess no.god is watching and he will punish me when the time is right.i am already getting punished by god.but i will not let my girl getting punished by me. i will not let any pain,sorrow come near her.i will fight really hard to make her happy to give her what she deserve,The best.
Baby you are mine and i am your’s.i wana give you the best in life.i want to give you the most out of life.but i am also human.i guess i should think that i am a super human so that i come down on to the level of humans.
I am not your dream man honey .perfect human don’t exist on this planet , they just don’t.but may be i will be strong enough to be with you as someone who loves you perfectly.i am only your’s and you are mine.i love you the way i loved you ages ago.i will love you forever the way i loved you this far. we have been together for so long now ,there is no room for error or doubt that how deep is our love for each other.but we both are humans ,the day one of us patience run out ,its going to end of our love story.both of us will suffer deeply.both of us will cry together both of us will go deep into the darkness.
Your man is strong baby , your man is with you always.but you are not happy.