I saw the MIST

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When everything looks so simple and easy , smile on the face and feels like nothing is going to get wrong, when life is bed of roses and things go smoothly as planned , why you still see the mist ?

I saw the mist amidst all , when life was smooth and simple , when it was tough and unbearable , when people left me all alone and new ones came in to join my force. I still saw the mist.

When I loved someone dearly and she left me , when I hated someone badly and they joined me, when I saw love in those who I thought were far off and when I saw no love, hate and ignorance in those who I loved so much and when they took no attention of me , I saw the mist.

Now I do not care what I see , a mist or no mist but what I do know its a tough life and no easy way , what I have learned that I have to live my life each day.

Yet I see the MIST.

–Dolce

Beauty from the WEST

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Nature is so beautiful , beautiful than anything else on this planet and sometimes it gives amazing display of its beauty. when we see it we realize what a beautiful world we live in and we also realize what we have done and what are we doing to this beautiful world we live in.

Some days ago I came across this beauty from my roof top and  I could not stop myself from clicking it . it was after showers display in the evening when sun was about to rest in the west and around 7 pm I saw it from my window , I knew I had to grab my smartphone and run to the roof top , I could not have missed it , not this one from my eyes .

And here I had clicked it.

–Dolce

The little One

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I usually come late at night from work.

My job is such that it requires me to stay late at night . and I often reach home by 1 am or 2 am at night . when everybody sleeps I work and when I reach home , it becomes so quiet that you hear the sound of insects from the nearby ground. well , its not only me who works night shifts , there are so many different professions that do night shifts , but I am one of them .

When I started doing night shifts it was difficult for me to cope with it only coz it was night shift. at first it becomes very difficult for ones body to adjust , to stay awake and to keep its eyes open all night , its against the natural body schedule. but work is work and duty calls. so job needs to be done.

Anyway , I am not here to tell you about night shifts , I am here to tell you what happens at night when I reach home and it happens frequently.

I took this picture recently , which you see above. I took this coz its home to little one. I call it little one coz it is little and its my secret friend.

One morning I was doing jogging in this ground which is in my apartment next to my flat. in the morning at 4 when its still dark and quiet , one can come across number of dark creatures , some known and some unknown.

Animals like cats and dogs are regular visitors to my apartment and they do no harm to anyone. so its fine with us. on this fateful day when I was jogging I heard a noise , like a scream , it was like a modified cat sound. like cats do me ew . it was anywhere in between me aa uuu eww. I knew it was not a cat but it did sound like a cat. I stopped and kept on hearing this sound from the corner where we see lights , right underneath this light she lives. behind the pole.

I stopped and tried to reach closer to the light , I saw wo eyes, glowing eyes, and then I noticed it had no four legs like cats. it had two legs and it was standing in upright position.

I was perplexed . I had courage to reach closer but as I stepped closer its roar increased it became more challenging . it was like its warning me to stay away and not to come any closer .

Luckily I had my smart phone with me and I took no time in clicking this pic.

Its there , I know you cant see but its right there , behind the pole , when I took this picture I knew this thing was watching me , was watching my every move and it was there.

I decided to stay away from it and respect its presence.

Now every time I reach home at night , little ones know my presence and tries to call me down from distance and sometime I do visit little one.

But from safe distance.

 

The night it Happened

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Few days ago me and my friend were coming to home after work .  we left office at 1 am and that day I had driven to work in my own car instead of boarding office cab , coz it was weekend so I decided to bring my own car and my friend who happens to be a female and my co worker left work late at night. on the way we bought snacks and beer . late at night we were hoping that we will not cross the line with law and will drive home safely and slowly. as it was a long route and on usual days it would take an hour to reach home . but that day we had different plan . we decided to drive slowly and to make a stop at one place where we can talk and gossip for long hours and then drive home.

As planned we drove slowly and stopped at one place , we had our snacks and we chit chatted . during this time ‘mags’ my friend’s name , saw a car parked right next to us .

She said she has seen this car before , I asked her where , she replied that this car is been following us ever since they left office. I said no , but she suggested me to go and check this car , lets go and have a word with the owner. I said alright. I was curious to know what was going on in here.

I walked up to the car leaving mags behind . as I approached the car I noticed its window were down and there was no driver. and when I looked inside I saw an ignition key , It appeared driver had left in a hurry, I decided to return and spoke to mags about this . she said its fine and then we decided to leave . as prepared to leave we noticed that our car was not in sight. I was puzzled to not to see my car. we looked around but we found it no where .

This is when mags told me to go and check the car we just noticed which belonged to someone but not us. for some stupid reason out of no where we decided to drive in abandoned car. we drove all the way and it looked very familiar , the car which we drove looked like we have been in it before.

I left mags at her home and drove to my home. we slept half of the day and woke up next afternoon like nothing happened.

I decided to went down to take a look at the car we drove last night.

It was my car.

The Deal

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The Deal

Its a small but very strong word. just like FUCK. now FUCK is the most popular word in the world and is the most used word in the world. we all know what it means but we use it for everything. even when we should not be using it but we use it.

Deal is somewhat less famous and less known word but still good enough to raise eyebrows. we know what it means . The Deal.

I am not afraid of the dark but I am afraid to go in dark places

Dark matter is black all black when you can not see anything not even your hands, all you hear is your deep breath , and you know you are alive or still alive . you walk across the cave full of darkness ,can’t see anything but you do know that there is a way ,way somewhere which leads to someplace or to something. but we do not know , what it is .

Its an unknown , we do not know what’s going to happen next , so we are scared of it. we do not know how to fight and how to tackle with it.

Fear of Unknown.

I decided and made a deal to myself that I will be scared of the dark and scared of the shadows. I made a deal to myself that I will have a fear of unknown coz this way I will be alert. and will take calculative steps . I am willing to take risks and I am willing to go all the way but I am not ready to risk my loved ones lives. I love them and I cant have them pay for the risks I take.

The deal to the shadows which are always with me . its the light which guides my shadows , I made a deal to it that I will not be afraid of you , if you are with me , either you are my enemy or my friend.

Few days ago I came from work in the morning at wee hours around 3 am . after all night work from the other day I was all tired and was ready to sleep. I had a glass of water and went to bed and closed my eyes. I was ready for sound sleep and was ready to go deep in my dreams. I sleep alone in my bed with no one around , in my room there is no space for anyone , its been like this for years now and I think I am not ready for another person in my room or may be I am , or may be I am bit confused.

So here I am in my bed ready to sleep tight . going through the thoughts of the day and suddenly I looked at the wall

I thought I was all alone , but I wasn’t I felt I see someone right next to me on the left hand side of my bed. I felt someone was there or is there . I tried to calculate in my mind how far this entity is. it appeared very close to me , very close , very close, right next to my shoulder. I got up and it also got up with me and then I stood

I was scared but I had the courage to stand , I wanted to counter my fear , I wanted to fight , I knew if I will not fight , I will never come to know if I will win or loose , should I loose but I am not ready to loose without fighting , I was ready .

I was ready to fight. .

I stood straight and looked at it , on the wall instead, I realized it was my shadow. my shadow a friend or foe I do not know but it was something. it was time for me to find out.

why there is no response from my shadow ? when I move it moves , if I am still it also still. it was strange , can I kill it ? I thought but may be I should not. you are my friend or foe or neither of those. but you are with me

I make a deal with you that I will not be afraid of you .

I made a deal .

-Dolce

 

 

Tail in The Sky

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Few days ago , I captured this image from my roof top . I am an avid photographer and I often use my smart phone to capture whatever I like and worth capturing. I have got lot of images in my collection which I clicked and I appreciate what I have , I often put my skills and imagination to test.

This particular image was during the ongoing monsoon season where in I saw this cloud trail passing over. I knew I liked it and I had to capture it . so ran to my room and got my smart phone to click this one .

For others it just might be a portion of cloud but for me it was something else.

For me it was a “Tail of Godzilla”. I imagined it as a tail of a giant lizard which just passed by and I am looking at it giant tail hovering over in the sky over the buildings. \

It gave me goosebumps .

Think I am crazy ?

I am

🙂

Baby have you forgotten your password

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Oh my baby , I seems to love you so much . you are so adorable , so lovely , so charming , so beautiful but I never loved you for your body , I loved you for your soul which houses inside that skin.

OH! wait honey !

Have you forgotten your password ?

I know you are better , you know you are good , you know you are far better than me . I am me but you are not . I wait for you to write something , to pen down something , I wait for your words. I wait for your thoughts , I wait for your views. I want to know what’s going on in your mind. I want to know what have you thought about .

I want to know what your eyes see, I want to know how you take actions , I want to know how your body behaves. I want to know that do you feel lovely in your skin, you have a beautiful body baby , a lovely body, I still remember the smell of your skin, the touch of your body, my lips on to yours , my hands on you and yours on me , I cant seem to feel the same way again , Its magical. I loved a woman , and I still love one . and I will always love one .

But I don’t know who I love baby , I don’t who I live with ,

Not enough  love seems to be here in this world anymore , this world has gone crazy and its driving me crazy . I see people cursing each other , I see people killing each other , we cry all the time , we ignore those who need help , we ignore their tears , we hurt lovely adorable animals , we hurt those who are already been hurt enough .

I don’t want to live here anymore honey , I am tired of this world . I am hoping against hope .

But I do believe that there is a better world waiting for me . but I do hope in my world I will have you , I will be waiting for you baby .

But you seems to have forgotten your password honey .

Its alright , I hope you will unlock the door.

Unlock the door baby.