I don’t know dictionary , now !


I remember . yes I still remember . I think It was during high school when my father taught me how to use dictionary for the first time . I had seen him using this thick book during 1990’s often . I had seen him using it during conversation , lectures , debates or something similar . I remember I used to wonder what this thick book holds . what ever it is , it must be magical.

I was curious like any other kid during my teens and was eager to know what it was . I had not heard of word dictionary till then. then one day I asked my father . my father introduced me to this thick heavy book which he called dictionary . for the first time I held it in my hands , oh boy ! it was heavy . one big thick and heavy thing . he taught me how to use it and he taught what it holds. and I was fascinated . it was amazing . not only it was interesting to use it and but it was learning with fun .

I started using it often and I realized I had learnt a lot from it and it was magical . simply magical .now I was better in my class and in vocabulary and my English teacher was very happy with me . my father had kept that dictionary since his childhood and he asked me to keep it for my children. dictionary never expires , knowledge in it stays forever. I promised my father that yes I will keep this knowledge for future generations.

But today ! and this is 2018 , 23rd august 2018 , 3am to be precise . today its a different story all together. I am sorry father I did not keep my promise . not because I failed to use it but because this generation and future generation will not have any interest in this book . its so disheartening to see and makes me feel so bad about it that this book has lost it charm to nothing but one simple smartphone.

Today every one has a smartphone . no one wants to carry dictionary in their bags coz its heavy and its hassle to carry coz of its weight and size. now people have downloaded dictionaries in their phone which cost only few mega bytes. that’s it . carry everything in your smartphone . I too have started using it in my smartphone and I do not even look at this gift from my father which he got from his father . I have lost the skill of using it. I or we have lost so many skills in time to technology and we did not even realize it .

Technology has helped us a lot but it has come for cost . it has made us insensitive to small things which holds big importance . we have become less emotional and do not regard anything now . consider this , ever since people have started using WhatsApp they do not call , one simple free of cost text . since there is no call there is no connection which one can feel from voice. how WhatsApp has ruined our lives I will cover in next article.

But here our all time fav old friend dictionary which helped us a lot during our school days and can help today and tomorrow has lost its charm to technology. I am not against technology but I am against insensitivities . I wonder now and I am scared what will happen when robots will take over humans . will human loose emotions to each other ?well , we already have . it has already been started . and this is scary .

Its very difficult to keep love alive for someone who do not even loves you anymore. well I am the exception and doing the unthinkable . I am the living live example of how to love some one who do not loves you and funny thing is that she knows it and yet no answer. I am like dictionary . sitting in the corner but once I had importance to someone and now I am obsolete to same person.

— dolce

I come alone


Its been five years . yes you read it correct , 5 . its a long time . very long . in a number its only 5 but to me its a long time . in these five years the world has change significantly . I have changed , you have changed. I was supposed to visit you every single year , every single Christmas , every single new year and every single birthdays . every year I think that I will visit you this year . will celebrate your birthday with you. or Christmas with you or new year with you . but every year its a same story. I just cant come by .

I love you and I love your country , your people and your language and your culture , its my second home . I may have left you but I still breathe in the same air . it feels like the same fragrance . the smell of your skin is still there with me .  I can still tell you how the breath of you feels like , I can feel your touch . your kiss and the feeling of me deep in you . making love to you with passion. those French kisses we had , those troubled sessions we had . those fights and confusions and adventure . I miss all that baby . do you ?

its been 5 years since I have last visited you and 8 years when I kissed you last . it was way back in 2011. but it all still feels the same . feels like it was yesterday .

I don’t cry baby , I don’t cry anymore . I am fine but I love you . what I can do . I love you . I just love you . and trust me I will die one day . but yes the love and emotions and the moments we had together will remain.

you are such a lovely woman and I was so lucky . and I was so happy and my family was also so happy , but I don’t know what happened , I forgive you baby . I really do .

I want to kiss you now and I want to hold you in my arms again , I don’t know if this will happen or not but its like a distant dream . you allowed me to kiss you and to make love to you . I touched your body , your skin , your lips and caress your hair and stroked you with passion. the sound of your love can be heard again. coz I want to .

I want to come to you again baby . trust me every single year I want to come to you . give me a chance I will stay with you forever . I will love you trust me , our little baby and a lovely dog and a cat and little sweet home . our small world full of passion and joy and happiness and smile and love . I dream of this world . don’t you baby ?

you do , I know you do . you are no stone ,you are my baby .

every time I see a plane in the sky . I think of you . I think that I am in this plane going to my baby . I am going to visit her , will meet her , will see her again , will hold her hands again and kiss her again. she is so lovely . how can I live my life without you my lady . I just can’t .

I will come to you my girl. I just cant say when , right now . but I will for sure. you can count on me . may be dolce is busy with something important . if dolce is not visiting you then it has to be something important , but nothing is more important to me than you my baby .

I love you so as I come alone .