My heart beat says – I Love You


 

 

Even before god gave me life,even before i took my first breath,even before i started walking on my toes and even before i spoke my first word –  God gave me you.

On the death bed ,here i am in the hospital breathing my last breath,tears in my eyes ,i can’t move ,i can’t see properly ,i can’t even breathe properly ,but i am still alive ,here i am on the bed waiting for someone.

I can see my friends around me , my parents ,my sister ,brother uncle and aunt but why i can’t see you ,i can’t see you since you are not here ,i can’t see you since my eyes are looking for you but even then you are hard to find.these are the last moments of my life that’s what the doctor said,i heard him saying this to my family.he don’t want me to know this but i know even if he don’t tell me ,its me who is going through this all pain and suffering ,i know how much i am hurt ,i know how much of it is curable,i may live ,i may not live but my love for you will remain alive forever.

All this suffering may have become small if i had seen you here,your smile to die for which i always wanted to see on your face, one look at your face was good for me to make my day,your shining bright eyes were strong enough for me to enlighten my day.one kiss from you had the power to keep me energize the entire day,a warm hug was  almost curable to any pain i suffer from.i need all this baby, i need you tonight.i am here on the bed in the hospital waiting for you and only you, my heart beat says i love you ,but why i can’t see you.come to me honey ,come to me ,i am dieing here.taking my last breath,hoping these will last long enough for me you to see one time,just one time.all this pain will disappear if i just see you one last time,i may not return to you after this but atleast i will die in peace.i want to die in your lap rather here on this bed,holding your hands like the way i held it this far.there is no peace in this world better than holding your hands right next to my heart which says all the time i love you.

It was my girl friend’s birthday and i decided to make a surprise visit to her.this was the day i had waited for a year since her last birthday when i was not with her.i can’t imagine i missed her birthday so many times, i was not ready to miss it this time.i had made plans for her that how i am going to surprise her ,how i am going to give her a present and will kiss her and hug her ,embraced her in my arms and will say those magical words , i love you baby.

I was really excited with all this and was in full of joy since it was her birthday and i was seeing her after a long time,she was not expecting me to come by but i just wanted to give her a surprise.i booked my plane tickets and decided to leave two days before her birthday to be there on time on her birthday, i had to buy gift for her from her city so i planned everything in advance ,booked my tickets ,spoke to my dear friend and told her about my plans ,she agreed to take part in it since she was also excited to see me after a gap and this all was supposed to be lot of fun.

The day came when i had to board the flight i spoke and told my parents about it ,they gave me their much needed wishes and i left my home early in the morning since i had a flight at 4 am.

Yes my girl friend lived in another city and me in different but even then we kept our love alive since we were truly ,madly and deeply in love with each other.the connection ,the energy ,the spark,passion ,love and respect was there in our relationship and it was on the high at all times.

All this made me not to wait any longer and to give her a surprise on her birthday.i boarded a taxi and reached the airport in no time.all this through while travelling to the airport ,memories of our time spent together flashed in my mind and in no time i was at the check in desk ,checked in my luggage ,got the boarding pass and in no time i was in the plane.

The plane took off , i was just so happy and so excited to see my baby again,wanted to kiss her so bad,wanted to hug her tightly in my arms.just wanted to see how happy she is going to be when she will see me in her arms.nothing beats the smile on her face which has always made me happy,always gave me energy.i just loved her so much.

Window seat in the airplane was something i always wanted to have.i have always enjoyed the window seat since it allowed me to look outside,the sun ,the moon ,the earth at night looked amazing and breath taking.

I remember looking outside the window.enjoying the view but then something unthinkable happened.i saw two flash light coming down from the sky ,two big balls of lights coming straight on to the earth,i could not see properly what it was or what caused it since the plane was in the clouds at the high altitude.i remember seeing a kind of volcanic eruption in the sky or may be some kind of giant metal ship hovering right on top of the plane.it was not a disc and it was not a cigar shaped ship it was a huge triangle.a big one ,never before i had seen this kind of thing.all my imagination went blank ,i failed to think anything ,i failed to sense  when a spectacle like this happened right in front of my eyes.i remember passengers in the plane screaming and in panic ,it was painful to see all this since we were right in the mid air and not on earth.we wanted to land safely on earth.

It felt like the space ship was shooting at the surface of the earth, i guessed the plane descended a little i could felt it.now we were below the clouds and were able to see the surface but this ship was still on top of us ,it was so big that it blocked the sunlight and the earth surface beyond it went all dark.what is this happening ,i asked myself ,i looked around but no one was in the condition to answer my question.every body was panicking in the plane, i guess so as the pilot because i could felt his tension,the plane was not stable anymore.

We had no idea where we going to land since there was no airport we were flying on top of the mountains ,where are we ? what’s going to happen to us ? what are these things? why all this is happening ? i had so many question but no one to answer those.i had no idea where to look at ,what to do ?

I realized that its not only the ship which was shooting at the earth but also humans firing back to the ship.i saw a ballistic missiles hitting the ship from the surface and a loud noise of boom,the sound was so huge that it shaked the plane violently.it seemed like humans were firing all kind of weapons back to the ship.i saw army jets flying right at the ship and doing acrobats in the mid air to dodge the laser beams from the ship.it was war between aliens and humans which was happening right now ,right in front of my eyes in the mid air.and we were all trapped right in the middle of this war.

Soon i felt like i have lost sense of fear in my mind.i thought about my girl friend ,i knew the end was near, there was no way that we were able to come out of this war alive , we were right in the middle of the war and any missile could have hit the plane anytime.i thought of my baby that how bad its going to be for her and for me that i died like this and she will never know about it since she never knew that i was flying to her to give her a birthday surprise.she will never come to know that the plane which got caught in the middle of the war was the plane i which i was flying.i spoke to god one last time and prayed and wished my girlfriend all the happiness in the world,may be it was my destiny to have it end like this though i never wanted but may be it had to end it like this.memories flashed in my mind the time which we had spent together.

In the middle of the plane shaking violently i opened my carry bag and took out the picture of my girl friend and looked right into her eyes.i prayed to god that please keep this smile alive on her face and today at this very moment i am taking away all her pain.i looked outside with her picture in my hand ,i see a light shining brightly coming right to the plane,it was a ballistic missile launched from the earth surface to shoot down the airplane ,i knew this is the end ,i closed my eyes and a loud noise boom.

It was the year 2012,the year of alien invasion.

I opened my eyes ,i was on the bed in the hospital , i realized this was my place since i saw my people when i opened my eyes.my eyes were heavy and i was in pain and i could not breathe.i heard doctor saying that i will not live long and will die soon because of my injuries.it looked like i was the only survivor in the plane accident since i saw the flashing lights of the cameras right at the door of my ward with the security ,my miraculous escape was the national news .every body thought i am still alive because i was lucky i thought god gave me the reason to escape for few more moments.there was a reason why this all happened.

But i am also human,i cried ,more than my pain it was the pain of not being with my girl friend,it was the pain of not being with her in my last moments ,i thought it was all in vain when i know that i have few moments to go and she is not here with me to hold my hands.pictures of my life with her and events on the plane ran in my mind like a movie.

I looked around , i saw my family ,my uncle aunts,sister ,brothers ,cousins every body and i also saw her .

She was here ,she was here, right here with me ,my eyes opened wide to take a good look,my heart beat ran fastly and i started breathing again heavily.yes she was her ,she was really here , i saw her coming to me slowly and slowly ,her face also got visible to my eyes and her smile which i could have died for was there.she came near to me right next to my ear and said ‘Baby you wanted me to be with you ,here i am honey and will be here with you till your last breathe.’ This is all i wanted to hear ,i was in peace now ,i was so much in peace and joy ,i felt my pain disappearing from my body there was no stress and no tension in my mind because now i knew for sure that my baby also loved me. i looked at her face ,her eyes were wet ,she was not ready to smile but she kept it for me,it was tough i know ,tough for me also to see her cry.

i rest her head right next to my heart to make her listen to my heart beat which says – I LOVE YOU.

I closed my eyes and i was in peace.

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